So many of my birthdays were ruined by my obsession with food and my body. The desire to be a different size loomed over the celebrations. Often I overindulged (isn’t that what dieters do?) and followed it up with shame and self flagellation.
For over 6 years now I have not gorged myself or starved myself or engaged in disordered eating practices before or after my birthday.
In the early years I still had some lingering fears that I would go back to my old ways. With practice and following a new path it became simpler, easier.
At first it requires a lot of attention. Once you know the basics, you hone the skills with more practice until you no longer think about it.
This year, as I wrote in my journal about my birthday celebrations and reflected on past ones, I knew I had reached a new place as a Dieter in Recovery. Anxiety had not been present in my decisions around the food. Being in charge of your body and your food gives you a relaxing and calm state of mind. Shame, anxiety and hatred can no longer breed in this atmosphere of love and self acceptance.
My birthday focused on people and experiences and food was a part of it. A real celebration.
Isn’t it time to make a new birthday wish and create the harmony you have always wanted?
Thanks for reading,
Christina
That doesn’t happen anymore